Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I'll need a drink after this week!

From a scale of 1-10, my stress level is a 13.  My mind is in a million different places this week.

Have you ever felt torn between what you want to be and what people want you to be....and in the middle of all that, not know where you fit in?  Wow, that totally sounded like I was in high school.  But sadly, I feel like that.

My friends give me so much crap because I can't go on vacations with them, go out every night on benders at the bars (only to wake up hung over the next morning anyways), go to the casinos, or lately...even go to lunch.  I'm sorry if I can't spend all my money like some of them can.  I have $60,000 in student loans to pay off when most of them have 1/8 of that to pay back.  It's gotten so bad that one of my best friends from college asked me to not be a bridesmaid in her wedding because I mentioned how expensive the bridesmaids dresses were that she picked out.

On top of all this, or maybe because of this a little, I almost have no social life.  Like I said before, I'm happy with my life the way it is....but it's getting a bit lonely.  I work, coach, and sleep...and 9 times out of 10 I'm busy with one of those 3 things.  My friends have either moved away, had a baby, gotten married/engaged, or still act like they're 21 years old.  And then there's me....not wanting any of those things.  Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love going out with them and seeing them but, I'm just always left with a bit of that feeling of, "I don't belong here anymore."  And I am the first to admit, I used to be way cooler....when I was in college and 21 years old.  I'm 26 now, I'm an's time to grow up and do adult things and be responsible.

I had a boyfriend at this time last year.  We were together for almost a year but, I broke up with him about 6 months ago because he would complain that I never wanted to do anything.  He used to complain that we never went out....funny thing with that was he made 3 times a year what I make.  Did I expect him to pay for me all the time?  No.  Would it have been nice once in a while to treat me to a night out instead of bitching at me when I couldn't go out because I couldn't afford it? Sure.  And here's the kicker...on top of that he said I worked too much. Ummm, anyone else see an issue with that?  He hated that I wasn't rich but didn't want me working all the time.  Ya.... defiantly broke up with him.  Sidebar: I haven't dated since....I'm happier being single.

My friends and family want me to be some successful business woman...with an office, a BMW, and lots of spending cash.  Reality is, I'm never going to be that and I'm ok with it.  Apparently they aren't though.  I will admit that yes, I am kinda broke but, I pay all my bills and student loans every month.  I just do not have much spending money.  I work 3rd shift full time as an auditor at a hotel and coach cheerleading during my days.   I don't go on vacations, shopping sprees, or drive a brand new car.   But guess what, I'm happy.  I have a job that I enjoy and it allows me to do something I love; coach.  It makes me so angry that I find myself apologizing for that to everyone I know.

Yes, I budget my money, save my change, never get enough sleep, have forgotten what it's like to buy a new pair of heels, work many hours, and have student loans that I won't pay off until I'm 40.  Money does make life easier but, on a day when it's warm out, my music is as high as it can go, and the windows are rolled down, my Chevy Cobalt sure feels as good as any BMW.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Thanksgiving weekend recap...

Just as I thought, my house was out of control.  We ended up having 5 more family members than we thought we would so the noise level was ear piercing at times.  It was all worth it though because we all had so much fun.

My black Friday experience was hmmm, awful yet rewarding.  I waited outside of Target for 2 1/2 hours in 30 degree weather for a new lap top.  Yes, I am one of those people who Black Friday shop for myself.  Actually, my mother said that if I went to get the lap top she would pay for it as a Xmas present for me.  It was an Acer 10.1in mini notebook on sale for $157.  What a deal!!!  Yes, I waited in the cold for that long, and yes I waited in the electronics line in the store for another 40min, but do I have a new lap top??? YES I DO!!  To all the southern Black Friday got NOTHING on us up here in New England.  We wait outside in the cold when we want a really great deal.

My older sister, cousin, and I took the three nieces to see the new Muppet movie.  Everyone go see it!!  It was so cute and really funny.  For those of you who remember the original Muppet show, you'll definitely enjoy it.

Snap back to reality....  This week is going to be one hell of a week.  In other words, I'll get hardly any sleep.  This week is try out week for my team.  We have two seasons so we have to have try outs twice.  There goes my Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.  Then, we have first team practice Thursday and our first game is Friday night.  And of course there is icing on top of this cake....we have a team fundraiser with our booster club from noon to 8 on Saturday.  Coaching consumes my life HAHA.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Raise your hand if you love the Holiday Season!!!

Of course my hand is raised....really high!!!  Although I am so broke come December 26th after all the gifts and celebrations, I love every minute of it.  I have a huge family and Christmas is the one time a year we all get together....all 40 of us....I swear that's not an exaggeration.  That includes my parents, siblings, nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins, and second cousins.  My mom is one of 6 so that's why there are so many of us.

Thanksgiving is more of a relaxing holiday.  We usually just do immediate family.  This year there will be myself, my parents, sister, her husband and two children, my brother, his wife, and their two children.  Total = 11.  Who am I kidding, my house will still be hectic haha!  I'm also excited to have 4 days off!!  So to everyone, have a wonderful Thanksgiving.  Eat lots of turkey and watch as much football as you can!

If you don't like Scenty, you're crazy

Again just wanted to say congrats to the Scentsy winner from my give away last week.  Congrats Angie and I hope you enjoy your new plug in warmer and scent!

And of course thank you so much to Christy for allowing me to have the giveaway.  I received a warmer from her and it's beautiful.  I got the Firefighter warmer from the Hero Collection.  If you know anyone who is a firefighter or police officer, you need to buy this for them.  I also got the Home Sweet Home scent which has a cinnamon fragrance so it smells so nice for the holidays.

Again, thank you Christy!!!!!

Friday, November 18, 2011

Lazy Weekend/Scentsy Giveaway Winner!

This weekend will be the first weekend since September 17th that I won't have to coach.  OMG I'm soooo excited!!!  Don't get me wrong, I love to coach but I'm so happy that I can literally stay in my pjs all weekend and be a bum.  I don't have any errands, no shopping to do, and no cleaning to do....ok well maybe a few loads of laundry.

I could of course find something that had to be car could use a good cleaning, and I could catch up on some paperwork for coaching but screw it.  I want a weekend of pure laziness.  What's so wrong with that?  I mean, come on, I work about 52 hours a week normally lol.

Honestly, the only thing I plan on doing this weekend, besides that laundry, is some crafting.  I have a few earrings to make, some wine bottles to break then paint, and some organizing for my teams fundraiser on the 3rd.  Along with that, I have a new stereo system to listen to my records on so I'll hook all that up.  Wow, I sounded like a total nerd just now lol.

Oh well, here's to the weekend!!!

Ok everyone, this winner of my Scentsy give away is......

Congratulations to Angie from Queen of Snot Princesses!!!  Please email me to receive your prize!

Have a great weekend everyone!  See you all Monday!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I think I'm in over my head...

I've always been pretty "savvy" with a computer.  I took some photo editing classes in high school but never in college. I'm completely self taught.  I've taught myself how to make images, .gif files, websites, mix music and even learned html code all on my own. Also, everything on my blog, I've done myself.   I don't have any fancy equipment or an apple computer.  It's just me and my mini notebook that I bought on sale at Target almost 3 years ago for less than $300 lol.  I don't own Photoshop (I wish I did though) or any fancy programs.  I use alot of online tools and the good old fashion copy and paste tool.

So last week the person who runs my team's booster club asked if I would make a mini video of the team for a fundraiser coming up in December.  I said I would and since then, I've been doing alot of YouTube watching; mostly of sports montages.  Only thing is that I've never made a video.  This is new territory.  And, not only do I have to make the video, I have to shoot it as well.

The first 30 sec of this video is kind of the look I'm going for, just different music and our video has be about 30 secs as well.

All this done by December 3rd....I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....

Monday, November 14, 2011

A little confused....

Hmm.... so I'm a bit mind boggled about my give away.  Only 2 people have entered.  Can someone explain to me why that is.  I think Scentsy is a wonderful product and I thought others would agree and try to win.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


Good morning everyone!  I'm excited to announce my first ever giveaway!!

Thanks to Christy over at Sunshine and Pickles, I'm able to offer you all a chance to win a couple Scentsy products!

If you've never heard of Scentsy, you're definitely missing out!  Scentsy is like having a candle burning in the house, only better smelling and no need of matches.  They sell beautiful warmers that just melt the wax, letting the aroma fill any space that the warmer is plugged.

 This would be so pretty in any teenagers room...not to mention safer than a candle.

 This is my personal favorite.  I love the simplicity of it.

Christmas is coming up!!!!

So what can you win?!?!?  Christy has been ever so kind as to offer the winner of this giveaway any plug in warmer and scent bar of their choice!  How awesome is that?!

How can you enter? Here's how:

1.Publicly follow my blog (1 mandatory)
2. Go to Christy's Scentsy page and tell me which  plug in warmer and scent you'd chose (1 mandatory)

For extra entries:

1.) Publicly follow Christy's blog (1 entry)
2. Follow me on Twitter (1 entry)
3.) Tweet about the give away: "@DeliaKhellerman is hosting a Scentsy giveaway! Any plug in warmer and scent bar if you win!" (2 entries)
4.) Buy something from Christy's Scentsy page (3 entries)

-Please leave 1 comment for each entry!

That's 8 chances to win!!! The giveaway will end exactly a week from now...November 17th @ 12pm EST.

Good luck everyone!!!

Shopping, Seafood, Sports...and a GIVEAWAY!!!

So it's officially the middle of the work week!  Whew!!  Thankfully, this week I have Thursday night off.  I love 4 day work weeks.

Thursday my father is coming to visit me from upstate NY.  My parents divorced when I was 5, so I grew up in New England while my dad stayed where we used to live in NY.  The older I get, the less I get to see of him which sucks.  I'm just always working and it's hard to do just a weekend trip to see him when the drive is about 6 hours.  The past couple years, he's been coming to visit me here instead.  I like when he comes to visit me rather than me go there because we're able to do more things (he lives in the middle of the boondocks).

What's on the agenda this weekend?  Our favorite 3 S's.....Shopping, Seafood, and Sports.  It's funny, for being man, my dad loves to go shopping...and I like when he buy's me things (I'm totally "Daddies Little Girl" lol) so I can't complain about that lol.  When your in the Ocean State, you MUST have seafood.  We always go get some lobsters and little necks one night then follow it up the next night with Fish and Chips. And of course Saturday night we have tickets to the Boston Bruins game.  SOOOOO EXCITED FOR THAT.  My dad and I loooove hockey!

On a totally different note, my first give away starts tomorrow!!  It's a good one so make sure to check back!!!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Moral support PLEASE!!!

When I was 17 I flew to Florida for spring was the first and last time I flew.  I hated every minute of it.  I've always had this little problem though.... I have a legit phobia of flying.  The thought of it scares me sooooo much.  My friends give me crap for it all the time and I'm so sick of being afraid of it, but I can't help it!

I know you're probable reading this thinking," You're more likely to die going to work in your car than die in a plane crash."  Statistically, I know that.  These are my reasons why....just hear me out.

1. If I were to get into a car accident, it would be on the ground.  Medical personal can just come to where I am.  If there were an emergency in the air, it would take 45min to descend and land not to mention you can only land on a good luck if you're over water.
2. If my car breaks down, I just sit and wait for AAA.  If my plane breaks down....we have to make it back to the one piece.
3. A car accident happens so fast...boom...its done.  If you're going to die, the impact is split second and it's over.  In a plane, you're inside the plane as its falling....time to know you're going to blow up and die.  Or worse, the place could break apart and you could just get sucked out and fall to your death.
4. Though you're more likely to get into a car accident, you're also more likely to walk away from that car accident alive.  In a plane crash...if you're dead...there is no "walking away" from something like that.

So yes, those are my 4 reasons.  I feel as if they make perfect sense.  To me, it's not about the chances of it actually happening, its a fear that it's going to happen to me if I ever get on a plane.  I'm a total basket case even when a friend or family member flies.  I literally have to check the news all day to make sure there are no plane crashes...and I don't feel better until I know they have landed.  I just don't understand why people think flying is such a good idea.  I mean, you're in a giant piece of metal that is held together with rivets, nuts, and bolts...all things that can break.  It is built like a bird and people hope it won't fall.  I mean come on people, does anyone else think that's put ridiculousness?

Ugh, I think I need help....or really good drugs if I ever want to fly anywhere ever again.

I did an interview....

Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend.  I just wanted to share a link with you all.  Head over to Sohpie's blog for an interview she did about me and my blog.  She has such a cute blog so please follow her!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Try's harder than you think

So recently one of my friends decided she wanted to make a list of her top 10 favorite songs and rank them from 1 (being her all time favorite) to 10.  Well, what started out as a fun idea turned into an obsession.  There were songs that she knew were going to be on her list right away, but then she started second guessing herself.  So, she's spent hours rummaging through old iTune accounts, YouTube videos, and billboard lists, trying to find songs that she may have forgotten about.  It's been a month and she's still not done.  Last time I checked, she had a list of 50 songs that she just loved so much.  She's slowly crossing off one song here and there until she makes it to 10.  I can't image what the process will be when she then ranks them from 1 to 10.

Unfortunately, I've now taken on the challenge...mostly to join her insanity.  Hmm...10 songs....that's it?!?!?  I love music so much and picking just 10 songs is nearly impossible, but I'm going to try.  I'll think of it as a that will bring me to a new music enlightenment.  Right now I'm compiling a list of all my favorite songs and then once I just can't find any more, I'll start to drop one at a time until there is 10 left.  What happens after that, will be details to come.

Her and I did make two rules though.

1.) It has to be favorite songs; songs that make you feel something.  Songs that remind of us of an ex boyfriend or event are not allowed.  The songs we pick have to be our favorite songs with no ulterior motives.  By doing this, we've eliminated the chance of having songs on our lists that represent a memory.  That is not what our top 10 are about....they are about ourselves and the relationship we have with the actual song.  Besides, I'm sure that if we want to make a list of songs that remind us of our ex's, or that drunken night in college....we could...easily.

2.)The songs do not have to all be #1 songs or popular songs.  It could be the worst song in the world to someone else...but it doesn't matter.  There is no bias to the song based on where it fell on the charts.

I won't list all the songs I have on my list right now, but a few are:
"With or Without You" by U2
"Silver Springs" by Fleetwood Mac
"Wonderwall" by Oasis
"Watchtower" by Jimi Hendrix (I know it was written by Bob Dylan but I like the Hendrix version better)
"Freebird" by Lynyrd Skynyrd
"Like a Rolling Stone" by Jimi Hendrix (Same reason as above...)

Challenge yourself to do this....I dare you....

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Nail Polish swap!!!

Good Morning everyone!

I just signed up to do Celia's and Tara's Nail Polish Swap!  Such a cute idea!  You should check it out and sign up!

The 3rd shift blues

So if you don't know, I work 3rd shift full time in a hotel.  Along with that, I am a high school sports coach during the days and on the weekends.  With that said, it seems pretty obvious that I do not get as much sleep as the normal person.  It's not really that bad.  I've gotten used to it over the past 3 years.

I'm having a problem now though...  I can't sleep at all.  Before, I would get home from work about 8am and go right to sleep.  The alarm would go off for coaching at 1:15pm and I'm out the door by 1:45pm.  In the past, the sleep I was getting from 8am-1:15pm was perfect....could have slept through a tornado.  Now, I toss and turn....waking up every hour and a half or so.  This goes on until the alarm goes off for coaching.  Normally, I get home from coaching around 5:15pm, eat dinner, and then take a small nap before going back into work.  Only problem with that is, I can't fall asleep after dinner like usual.  Because of this, I've been averaging 5-6 hours a day on sleep, five days a week.  That's it!

I'm so frustrated I miss falling asleep and waking up fully rested.

  Any tips?  I'm desperate!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Love is for dummies

"I am someone looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love." - Carrie Bradshaw

What an awesome quote.....right?  Is it strange that as much as I personally agree with that quote, I believe that it's unattainable.  Ok, maybe I'm a pessimist but come many people do you know lie, cheat, and are miserable being married?  Sadly, I know WAY too many. 

There is always drama, forceful compromising, and a struggle to keep a relationship together.  I've come to the conclusion that there is no such thing as love.  I'm not talking about love shared between family.  I'm talking about "true love".  The type where you want to marry that person and live "happily ever after".  Honestly, I think it is nothing but an agreeable common attachment between two people, and when the attachment starts to wear off, they go looking for another one.  

The older I get, the less I believe in the idea of love.  Someone once told me that I need to meet the right guy. I laughed at them.  Maybe what I need is someone to show me love is real, because until now, no one has been able to do that.  Even my friends that are in relationships all deal with so much bullshit.  Why would I want to put myself into that situation?  I'd rather be happy alone than in constant need of someone else.  I want to make myself happy, not spend my life depressed and crossing my fingers that one day some prince will swoop in a make my life complete.  Come on, what is this, a Disney movie?  NOPE!

I'm sorry if you're reading this thinking, "Poor girl," or, "She has no idea what she's talking about.  Me and my significant other are perfect and happy," and just getting angry at me.  But, you can not accuse me of not having just cause to feeling the way I do.  

So overall, am I looking for love? No.  If it wants to find me, it knows where I am.  Would I like love? I guess.  Am I going to kill myself if I don't find it? No.  

Believing is until I see it, it's nothing but a myth, folklore....a unicorn.